I'm depressed

[atheistgod1999]

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[Obiwanshinobi]

Best things in life are for free, though.

[Specineff]

Go outside, take a walk, breathe some fresh air. Pick up some trash and put it in a dumpster just for kicks. Do something good for someone, for no reason, and without expecting a reward. You WILL feel better.

So what if gaming has gone to shit? Isn't there a HUGE backlog of good games yet to try? (I myself haven't cracked open my copy of Skies of Arcadia for DC, as of this post)

[atheistgod1999]

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[WelshMegalodon]

and all the good ones are too fucking expensive

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Final-Fantasy-V ... SwnFZXVdUB

http://www.ebay.com/itm/Time-Crisis-II- ... SwENxXljfO

[atheistgod1999]

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[trap15]

Get a blog please.

[neorichieb1971]

I was once depressed to the point of suicidal. I can tell you now that i'm married, inherited a nice family, got a house, do lots of gardening, say hi to the neighbours, buy lots of retro shit on ebay at inflated prices.. and loving it.

You can't see the woods through the trees yet, but eventually you will.

What I would advise in the meantime. Do more listening than talking/typing. If you get mad at something/someone ask yourself if stirring shit up will get you anywhere. Drop people that make your life worse and find someone to replace them that will make your life much better.

Have a beer or 2.

[atheistgod1999]

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[Mischief Maker]

My school staff are severe SJWs who punish me for the littlest reasons (got a day ISS just for telling a teacher no one liked to drink bleach because they claimed it was a death threat (and actually asked me if I knew that the teacher knew that drinking bleach would kill her)).

Goddamn, son! Here you are bitching about SJWs ruining everything, oblivious to the fact that back in the days before social justice if you told a teacher to drink bleach you'd get the strap from the principal, then they'd call your parents, then you'd get the strap again from your parents when you got home.

I really wouldn't describe telling a teacher to kill themselves as a "littlest reason." In fact I suspect there's a lot more happening in that story before you went so far as to tell your teacher to drink bleach. You're being naive if you think that your teacher is a vacant-eyed SJW who literally took it as a death threat. Chances are you royally pissed off this teacher and that was simply the excuse they seized upon to punish you. If not for the bleach, they'd have used one of the other things you said.

Maybe you should apply your new forum skills to real life. Right before you say something charged, take a deep breath and cool down for a moment, then ask yourself, "if I actually say this, what's going to happen next?"

And in all seriousness, you need to branch beyond videogames into some sort of hobby that requires physical exertion. You've got excess aggression spurting out your ears and wiggling your thumbs in front of a screen ain't venting it.

[atheistgod1999]

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[iconoclast]

Great games (and movies, music, etc) come out every year. If you want an old game that's unreasonably expensive, just play it on an emulator. Spend more time doing things you enjoy instead of letting the things you don't like get under your skin.

[hail good sir]

move out when you are 18 and go full blown independent. as you walk or bike to your shit job you can reflect on the fact that the only thing that really matters is that you can eat food and have a place to sleep, the rest is in your head. once your perspective has changed, you can make a friend and/or try to have sex with a girl. you could go your whole life and not talk to anyone in person about video games and it would be fine. exercise makes you feel good. don't tell people to drink bleach, or talk about drinking bleach in any context really, that's weird.

[Shepardus]

There's a virtually unlimited number of things to see and do in the world, both good and bad. You could spend a lifetime dwelling on everything you don't like, but you can spend just as long enjoying the rest - you know what they say about the glass being half-full or half-empty. The good stuff may not be all accessible to you now, but that just means you have something to look forward to in the future. Make the most of what you've got rather than complain you weren't given more. That doesn't mean to rest on your laurels and accept everything as-is (how would you reach the things you look forward to then?), but it does mean not to dwell on negatives unless you plan on doing something about them. Even things that appear deeply negative may be turned to your advantage or worked with and problems mitigated rather than worked against and problems exacerbated.

Also, if you feel like people are constantly misunderstanding you, you ought to learn to communicate better. It's not others' obligation to understand you, it's on you to make yourself understood. That involves understanding others well enough to figure out how to say things to them without antagonizing them. And also realize where not to say what (like this thread, in this forum).

[Specineff]

all the good ones are too fucking expensive and will apparently only get even more.

Vanquish PS3: 20-25 bucks.
Panzer Dragoon Orta: 15
Valkyrie Profile Silmeria: 15
Valkyria Chronicles: 13-20.
Valkyrie Profile Lenneth:15-20.
G-Darius: 30-45.
Colony Wars 1-3: 30 bucks.
Raiden Project Ps1:33
R-Type Final: 17 bucks.
Rez Ps2: 15-30
Zone of the Enders PS2: 5-25
Zone of the Enders HD Collection: 18.
Dracula X Chronicles PSP (Remake, original Rondo and SOTN): 22 bucks, SEALED.
Robocop Vs Terminator Genesis: 23

You could also drop by the trading station and see who is getting rid of what. You're bound to get a good deal. Also, if you're willing to bite the bullet for the sake of retro gaming, get an Everdrive and get downloading all those obscure or expensive shmups or platformers for Genesis. The Sega CD version 2 will play burned CDs with no problem, either, so Snatcher, Robo Aleste, Keio, Bari Arm/Android Assault and the Lunars aren't that hard to get.

[maximo310]

Dude,just stop. Do some research and figure out how to change yourself, instead of blaming it solely on others.

[Squire Grooktook]

So what if gaming has gone to shit? Isn't there a HUGE backlog of good games yet to try? (I myself haven't cracked open my copy of Skies of Arcadia for DC, as of this post)

all the good ones are too fucking expensive and will apparently only get even more.

Play on emulators.

[SapphireDensetsu]

So what if gaming has gone to shit? Isn't there a HUGE backlog of good games yet to try? (I myself haven't cracked open my copy of Skies of Arcadia for DC, as of this post)

all the good ones are too fucking expensive and will apparently only get even more.

Play on emulators.

This. PCBs and consoles are a bad meme, and even if you have absolutely awful hardware, you're bound to find a few emulators and PC games which work alright.

[Durandal]

First step is to figure out the reason why you are still crawling out of your bed. What am I going to do later? Is what I'm doing right now any use to my future goals? You don't have to be Bill Gates or something, just be sure that there is something you want to do before you die no matter how insignificant. Rember to keep it grounded, else your broken dreams are going to bite you in the ass. The most depressed and loneliest people are those who just want to live for the next day.

Second, learn to become self-aware. At some point you should be able to look back at what you just thought or did and think 'christ, that's fucking autistic'. That means paying attention to your surroundings and what's acceptable or not. It also means being able to reflect on yourself from an alternate perspective, or those of others. Even if you're some kind of spazeroid, it's better to be self-aware that you're one and either accept it, work around it, or do something about it, else you're going to be stuck asking 'why' for the rest of your life.

[Obiwanshinobi]

Spoiler

[BIL]

Saying Edgy McEdgelord things like "drink bleach" "die in a fire" "cut your peen0r off and rub it with a lemon" etc is posturing. Don't do posturing. You might as well hop up and down on one leg while making the international J.O. gesture.

Anyway, what you are describing is typical teenager bullshit. It'll pass, so don't make the mistake of assuming this is forever and letting yourself stagnate in it. If you do that, when the future arrives you'll be caught jerking off with your pants around your ankles. Then the future will be gone too. Trust me I know!

[Blinge]

I was misdiagnosed with autism.

Elaborate on this please. This is genuine interest, not trolling.

[ryu]

I was misdiagnosed with autism.

No surprise considering how you act.

That doesn't mean you're always like that. I was a self-centered goofball myself for the longest part of my life and am doing fine now. In the end it's just a matter of adaption. The world doesn't revolve around you and nothing you do will change that.

And telling a person to commit suicide is a really dumb thing to do, even if you feel like "everyone hates that person" (which is only your perception of that world, you need to be aware of that). It's like you're attempting social suicide. If that happened inside the classroom with your classmates you probably scored a lot of negative points with all the kids around. You should be able to take a hint from that.

Also.
Whether you have autism or not doesn't matter as long as you can play a functional part in social life. At your age that is unfortunately a matter of how peers tolerate the misbehavor of a person. As others have said before, you can grow out of this. Don't worry to much, autism is a buzzword more than anything.

[Bitter Almonds]

¿QUÉ? Gaming is at its best right now. Games are widely available and fucking cheep. If something costs too much because of scalpers, you can just buy the digital download for some of those games. I just bought Ikaruga for, like, 15 bucks flat hahah. This game was 50 or 60 bucks plus tax when it came out on the Dreamcast and the GameCube...

[MX7]

First of all, as a teacher, if someone told me to drink bleach I would treat it very seriously. Nothing to do with being an 'SJW' (such a ridiculous term. If one is going to pick a derogatory label, at least make it sound less awesome than 'social justice warrior'). It's a threat, even if made against someone 'no one likes' (even the most unpopular teachers have feelings, innit), and even more so, it's a clear indication that something's wrong.

As you are not my student, I can give you more candid advice than I would normally give in this situation (which, not to belittle you or anything, is very very common in 16 year olds)

Get drunk
Take drugs
Meet people
Do stupid things
Say stupid things
Play lots of games (emulated. It's far not important to be actually playing something. You;ll quickly get over the commodity fetishism)
Watch lots of films
Read lots of books
Listen to lots of music
Stop posting on the internet

This last point is probably a little harsh, but I don't think posting on this forum is helping you much. You seem to be continually going through a cycle of perceived self-destruction and seeking validation, where in actuality the things that you consider to be so life altering really are not in the mid to long term. Being a teenager is both shit and amazing, and you'll look back with some fondness on the intensity of emotion you once had. But honestly, I strongly recommend either writing a diary, or a blog as someone mentioned above, because posting here about tuings that are not crusty old videogames is neither conducive to your own development or particularly enjoyable for the rest of the forum

[mnneurope]

sorry to inform u, but things only get worse in the future, like, literally

i just came from year 2025.

its now 2nd term of president Trump, after NRA member assassinated both president HDRC, and vp TMK

Trump in his second term delivered on his promise to make women great again, and appointed Anita Sarkeesian as his vp

he managed to block all electronics imports from China (he included there, just in case, Japan and both Koreas?), so say goodbye to importing PCBs from Japan, ur stuck to whatever u can scramble from US soil...


have fun

[Obiwanshinobi]

sorry to inform u, but things only get worse in the future, like, literally

What I keep telling my infant nephew when he's being displeased with situation at hand.

[FinalBaton]

Get a blog please.

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This.
Please do not use this forum as your diary.


You're welcome to talk videogames here, but you seriously need to vent and that part should be done on a blog/diary or something, or in a discussion format elsewhere (whether on another forum that's accepting of personal talk, or social network, or talk with someone(either someone you know, or go consult a professional), either on the phone or in person).

By the way, there's no shame in consulting a professional : I've done it myself. I had a really rough patch in the past(pretty severe depression, I was completely amorphous, had no energy and extremely sad all the time), and the meetings(bi-weekly) I had with my local Social Worker at the time(profession is called "Travailleuse Sociale" here, not sure what it's called in english. A Psychologist would have also done the job in my case, but I actually think that a Social Worker was a great professional for me to go towards) were of tremendous help for getting me back up on my feet(because I literally had to pick myself up since I was so down). These people provide you with a very attentive ear(seriously, they're really good and helpful) on a constant basis, and have great input to give you depending on your personnal situation, background and life. They can also refer you to a doctor if need be (which was my case).

As in everything with one's personnal life, change needs to be kickstarted by oneself. Make a move in the right direction, towards other resources(and there are a ton out there), and you will receive the help needed to get better.

[quash]

In retrospect, I would have done one thing differently in high school: I would have started lifting.

Start now. I don't care how unhealthily skinny or disgustingly fat you are. Go find a local gym that doesn't gouge you on membership and/or will give you a hook up rate (YMCA, some Gold's, whatever local colleges have a gym) and start pumping iron.

You'll look better, feel better, and you'll be able to put on the right kind of weight in due time.

As for the rest of your troubles dude, just ignore the vast majority of people around you. If they want to talk to you, be cordial, but don't get invested in what people think of you, especially if you don't care for them already.

Get into college within your financial means, but don't think of it as a golden ticket to a job afterwards. To the contrary, it is largely a waste of time unless you're studying in the right field, and even then, most undergrad courses are going to lull you to sleep. At some point you'll figure out the importance of networking and it'll only go up from there.

Also, gaming is great right now. I would have killed to have the kind of access to videogames that we have today back when I was in high school. You think it sucks having to emulate games? Try knowing a single person with a copy of MVC2 (which wasn't emulated at all at the time) and then having him move halfway through the year. Imagine having to actually hunt down an arcade with a functional Initial D cabinet.

Build a cheap PC and utilize emulation for all its worth. If games weren't so cheap in Japan, I wouldn't have any hard copies at all anymore.

[GaijinPunch]

Get into college within your financial means, but don't think of it as a golden ticket to a job afterwards. To the contrary, it is largely a waste of time unless you're studying in the right field, and even then, most undergrad courses are going to lull you to sleep. At some point you'll figure out the importance of networking and it'll only go up from there.

As someone who had to re-enter the work force on the US side of things, I was shocked at how many people cared what my degree was, despite having 15 years of pretty hard to get experience. I basically had the job people get their masters degree for already, and a few places would not phone screen me. In short, the degree will never hurt... it just may not help either.