Blinge wrote:mastermx wrote:Blinge wrote:Going to some social event and the first thing anyone does is ask "what do you do" or other interrogation. Usually theyre very proud of their lives too. great, a maxed out self consciousness meter is the perfect way to begin an evening, thanks!
Perhaps they are making small talk, and just trying to break the ice. But really it would depend on context and tone.
It wouldn't be so bad if I felt remotely positive about my life, occupation or lack of ambition.
Unfortunately this isn't the case, and my elusive answers apparently made me come across as a prick.
Fuck breaking the Ice, I'm happy to socialise without running a background check on whoever I'm talking to..
I mean, I get the feeling, and maybe it's partially a matter of getting older and more comfortable with yourself, but basically everybody reaches that moment of "life isn't what I expected." I used to lie through my ass on first, second and third dates. But hey, no one's life is easy (though, socially, everyone pretends otherwise), and fuck them if they judge you.
That being said, I don't plan on attending class reunions anytime soon for the same sort of self-consciousness. I'm content with where I am coz I played my hand the best I could. That's all that anyone can do. Just don't want to endure a series of concernedly-arched eyebrows followed by mock interest when the words 'grocery store' come up. Grow a thicker skin? Maybe. Just don't feel like it.
Hrm... this post took an unexpected turn...